Hey gals and guys 😁,
What a day?!My bad streak continues.I woke up at 7am for some reason 😪Instead of the usual checking my social media my first thought was to check if my former lover’s car was still outside 🤔.I used to do this during our situationship just to catch a glimpse of him in the mornings😍.He would even text me sometimes to let me know he was leaving so I could spy on him and vice a versa 😂When I realised what I had done I climbed back into bed and fell asleep until I was awoken at 11:31am by a phonecall from my doctor.It was test results I had been waiting for.
It was not good news 😭I won’t go into details but its all sorted now.My mind was also put at ease as my smear test for cervical cancer came back clear.Cancer runs in my family so I am always paranoid I will get it 😯Smear tests are so uncomfortable but I have never found them embrassing.I know some people do and I can understand why but I would rather a few moments of blushes than months of treatment or loosing my life.
My nightmare day really kicked in when I had an arguement with my former lover in the apartment below.We were messaging and I just lost it about an issue between us.His clear lack of respect and care for me could not have been more obvious😑.I can’t go into details of the conversation but lets just say he done something unforgivable.It was a conversation I wanted to have face to face but as I have previously stated he can’t accept responsibility for his actions so he refused to meet me.I eventually gave in and told him via message what the issue was.I love him with all my heart but I can’t have someone in my life that continuously walks all over me.
My former lover in the apartment below and I are finally finished.There is no going back after today 😔We can’t even be friends.I need to move on.I told him there will be no further communications between us ever again.I hope he at least obeys this request after all he has put me through.I doubt it but his efforts are too little too late.Of course if he was in serious trouble I would be there but boundaries would be set if that were to happen.When you have been in love with someone that never fully fades away,it changes.I am so excited to move on (hopefully with the musician 😉)and start preparing for going to Australia ✈
Speaking of the musician…I stuck to my word and didn’t reply to his snapchat.He is starting his gig in the Skeff in a half hour and I would love to be there but I do think its good he doesn’t see me for a few weeks so that I am not coming on to strong as per usual.I did tag the musician in a meme on facebook and I didn’t get a comment back 😳(publicly rejected 🤣).He has been unusually quiet on social media today but then again he was in college in Dublin and then travelling back for his gig tonight.Another good thing about not being there tonight is that I don’t have to see women flirting with him 🙂
I have the apartment to myself tonight as the flatmates are away and I am quite enjoying the peace.Its nice to have some alone time every now and again.I think I am going to watch some trashy tv,read some more of the Harry Potter illustrated book and go to sleep 😴Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day 😁
Positive vibes always,