Hello gals and guys 😁,
Happy hump day,coincidentally, it also happens to be national steak and blow job day 😂😉I didn’t get any humping,steak nor did I give any blow jobs 😂
First off can I start by saying a massive thank you to everyone who has taken the time so far to view my site and read my posts 😍Today I had the most views,comments and likes than ever before 😄I can’t believe people are taking the time out to read about my life!Its so humbling and I appreciate every single viewer😍.
My week has improved slightly thankfully🤗.I had a long shift at work today(1pm-11:00pm)but Magda was duty manager tonight so as she always does we finished on time as promised 😁Again though I was stuck at a till by myself so no getting to have the craic with Ellen or Chris 😒Customers seemed to be in alright moods so not much bother on that front 🙂Aoife is in tomorrow so at least I can catch up with her and have a laugh at our wild night out on Saturday 🍺I have been working in Lidl over two years now and I FINALLY got my own locker 😄There is more staff members than there is lockers(usually)so when I started there wasn’t a spare one.I took a snapchat of my locker and put it on my story(its the little joys that get you by in that place!)and Lauren replied back saying”That was my locker”.How cute?I got one of my work besties locker after she left 😃
One of my besties arrived home from Australia today too 🙂Dylan left a month ago to go to Australia for a year so I am not 100% why he is back so soon.He did mention that one of the women he went with was making the trip miserable but I really hope he isn’t home because of her😯.Travelling is one of the best experiences and I would hate to think he missed out.I have known Dylan nearly 3 years.His stepfather Mike was my manager in Tesco and soon after I joined Tesco,Dylan started.We got on immediately but he would never talk to me outside of work because I was in a relationship.When my relationship was falling apart and my Dad had his accident,Dylan really stepped up as a friend.I can talk to him about anything and he can always cheer me up so its good to have him home ❤I am working tomorrow so I won’t get to see him until Friday but I can’t wait to catch up with him.
We have been in constant contact since he left so he knows all about my massive crush/obsession with the musician 😂He has been advising me from a man’s point of view and is probably the only reason I have remained half normal in my quest to get the musician in my bed again 😉Dylan is not a fan of the musician.He thinks the musician loves himself too much even though they have never met.They will meet very soon though as we have decided to go to the Skeff and make the musician jealous by being flirty infront of him 🤔What else are guy bestfriend’s for right?!😂
The musician has been very quiet on social media again today apart from viewing my snap story about my locker.Obviously I can only see what he puts of up on his profiles so he might be very active in sending messages or snaps to others on social media privately.I was listening to his EP on Spotify on the way to work ♬I can’t get enough of his voice.I am not being biased because I have the hugest crush on the guy.He is seriously talented and I know he will be as successful as Ed Sheeran one day 🤞He already appeared on The Voice of Ireland and came close to winning 😁My plan to use work as a distraction to stop thinking about him didn’t work as I had one of his songs stuck in my head all day and so many times I thought I seen him come into the store today (wishful thinking😉).
My former lover in the apartment below hasn’t contacted me since our fight yesterday.For once I might have gotten through to him and he has now accepted we are done.I was speaking to my ex (the man I was with for 6 and a half years)on the phone and having a catch up.I’ll write a whole blog on that relationship and break-up soon.I was telling William all about the fight (he never liked the guy downstairs for obvious reasons!)and he said something that just click in my mind.William pointed out that it always came across as though my former lover in the apartment below thought “he owned me”.The former lover told me many times in recent months that my pussy and ass belongs to him 😠Another favourite of his lines to tell me was that he knows I’ll only want him even if I move on (sometimes I worry deep down he is right?!)I could never see this “ownership” of myself because I was so caught up the whirlwind romance of the first few months of our situationship but now the rose tinted glasses have come off and I realise I was just a possession to show off to him 😭😠💔He must be at his parents or one of his many women’s houses tonight as his car is not parked outside the apartment block.I just hope that he sorts the issue out that we argued about yesterday for himself because its dangerous to his health but I doubt it as he is in denial.If he doesnt its no longer my problem to deal with.I tried and I can do no more.The debauchery that has gone on recently has definitely shut the door on any reconcilation 😕
Everyone was talking about the death of Stephen Hawking today.I didn’t know much about him only what I saw when I watched ‘The Big Bang Theory’ tv show (one of mine and the musician’s favourite tv shows 😍).I do admire how despite being given two years to live and being confined to a wheelchair,Hawking never gave up.He achieved so much and inspired so many scientists.He is one of the people you can truly say left this world a better place than what he found it.May he rest in peace.
I hope my week continues to improve.I am absolutely exhausted (I have come to accept that this may just be my permanent state of being from now on)from the last few bad days.I’ll of course as always keep you updated on the drama in my life 😋
Positive vibes always,