Hey gals and guys 😁,
Hope your week is going good so far.I had a very quiet day today.I was working for most of it but at least today I got to have some banter with Chris and Aoife was working too 🙂Chris absolutely cracks me up and we love to wind each other up 😂I didnt get to have my post night out chat with Aoife as we were quite busy today.
Our area manager was in store today and found out I was leaving to go travelling in July.Grainne told me Neil went into panick mode 😂He wants my letter of resignation as soon as possible outlining why I am leaving and when I am leaving so he can start hiring already even though my last day in Lidl isn’t until the 22nd of June!I got so excited at the thought of writing this letter.I can’t wait for my final day in Lidl 😁
Dylan is home 😁He has been snapping me all day and is mad to see me but I just wanted to be on my own this evening.I have become a bit anti-social the last few days.I think its because I am starting to panick about going to Australia (didn’t help Chris informing me that the spiders band together to make one giant spider!).I am mainly panicking I won’ t get all my documentation etc on time before I fly out of Ireland on the 26th of July.Claire sent me a long video advising me on how to pack and what to pack for coming over.A suitcase full of panadol,neurofen etc because apparently those things are very expensive in Australia.
I decided after work to start packing the items I don’t use into boxes for storage back home in Ballyshannon while I am away.I thought the easiest place to start packing up is my bedroom as I have teddies and ornaments in there.I thought if I pack gradually throughout the 3 months I have left in Galway it’ll be less stressful and it won’t be too much change all at once.I was so happy to begin packing but it was momentarily ruined 😟My bedroom is situated above my former lover’s(I am finally going to name him aka Keith) bedroom and I could hear him having sex very loudly below me 😠My heart hurt a little💔.Not because I was jealous or wished it was me down there with him.I just felt like he was doing it on purpose to annoy me and it was sort of ruining this new beginning for me if that makes any sense.After a few moments I talked sense into myself and continued on packing.It feels so strange packing up your life but at the same time I have never been more ready for a fresh start 😄
While packing I was sorting through some paper work and I found something that reminded me how far I have come in the last 18 months.I found one letter I wrote to Keith that I had planned to slip under his door before I committed suicide explaining how much I loved him and my reasons for killing myself.The other letter was to my ex-boyfriend William who I was in a relationship with for 6 and a half years explaining why our relationship ended,why I killed myself and funeral arrangements to be put in place.I read them back and I am so glad I didn’t go through with committing suicide but instead sought out the help I so badly needed from mental health professionals.I wouldn’t have met so many amazing people or be starting my new adventure in Australia 🌞I am so proud on how far I have come with my depression and anxiety after being in such a dark state of mind.
The musician is back on social media today 😊.He set up an event page for a gig he is doing on St.Patrick’s Day☘.I unfortunately won’t be able to attend as I am working from 4pm that day but I gave it a like on facebook so as to promote him 😉He viewed my snap on my snapchat story about how stressed I was trying to pack so he knows its really happening.I am actually going and still not a sign of giving a fuck😣.I don’t know why I care so much as its not like we are going to get into a relationship when I am moving across the world in 15 weeks?!Still I want him to show some sign that he’ll be sad to see me go 😕This is our pattern though.We’ll spend a day/night together and then not communicate for weeks 😦
I have the day off work tomorrow and I plan to meet Dylan for a reunion 😀I’m not sure what the plan is yet.Probably just meet in town.No doubt Keith will wait until he sees me leave the apartment to parade whatever unlucky woman he had sex with last night in front of me as is his usual stunt 😒I should really do a workout too and get back into a regime as I have my sister Grace’s confirmation coming up in April.I’ll also blog about my 6 and half year relationship with William and the full story of my situationship with Keith to give clarification tomorrow.It may take most of the day as its going to be a long blog!
Positive vibes always,