Crazy,Stupid Love

Hey gals and guys ๐Ÿ˜,

Sorry I have been absent the last couple of days.Its been hectic ๐Ÿ˜ซI am working 50 hours this week.The day after Danniella called out her cheating fiance on Facebook she was in work.She didnt look like she was doing so well ๐Ÿ˜”After a while I just heard Mirka (the new starter) say down the quail “help me”.I thought she was asking for help to another staff member on a work task and as I wasn’t free I didnt pay much attention.Not long after I heard screaming and crying down the quail and thought it must have been Danniella as I hadnt seen her on the tills for a while so she must have took a break to cry about her problems understandably.About 5 minutes later the ambulance pulls up to the store and I see our deputy store manager Shaun run out to them.Then I knew something was badly wrong ๐Ÿ˜ฏMadga,the duty manager,comes to my till and asks me to stay a while longer than needed because Danniella had collapsed from a heart attack in the canteen ๐Ÿ˜ฎI started shaking and when Shaun came to the tills to help with the queues his face was pure white and he could barely talk he was in that much shock.Luckily we have since heard Danniella is on the mend ๐Ÿ™‚

So Keith messaged me on viber on Sunday for the first time since our fight and he acted as if nothing happened ๐Ÿค”We just were sending emoji’s back and forth for a while until he asked me when we are meeting up because its been too long now ๐Ÿ˜‚I of course was making him pay so I gave a cheeky reference back to the subject of our fight ๐Ÿ˜‚I also told him I was busy but he was insistent he wanted to go for a drive somewhere that evening so I said I would think about it.I ended up not meeting him after work after what happened with Danniella and I was working the next morning at 5am ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜“

The 5am-1pm shift was a killer as always.I couldn’t sleep the night before either.I came home and napped on the sofa until about 6pm.Naps are life ๐Ÿ˜Not long after I woke up I got a message on Viber from Keith(eager beaver ๐Ÿ˜‹)asking what were my plans for the evening.I told him I was just going to shower and chill out in my place.He asked me out for a few drinks as we were both starting in the late afternoon the next day.I said no at first so he suggested we go bowling instead.I tried to get out of it (even though I actually wanted to go…just didnt want to appear to keen ๐Ÿ˜‰)He told me not to be so lazy,that he wanted to kick my ass in bowling and that he just wants me all to himself.Keith always knows how to get his own way with me ๐Ÿ™„

To make it an interesting evening he placed a bet on the bowling.Whoever won got to decided what we done after the bowling.I had to get ready so we agreed to meet at the front of the apartment block.It took me 45 mins to look half decent ๐Ÿ˜›I text him when I was ready.As soon as I heard his footsteps coming down the stairs my heart started racing ๐Ÿ’“I didn’t know how to act but I barely looked at him when we came face to face.I couldnt because I knew as soon as I saw him I’d want to forgive our fight straight away.It was strange getting into his car after so long.We chit chatted for a while about random stuff.Then the topic of me going to Australia came up.I told him I had only 9 weeks left here and he was shocked.He told me he doesnt want me to go.

We arrived at the bowling alley and he was the perfect gentleman.He opened the door for me and paid for the bowling…I was starting to wonder if this was date and I didn’t know it was ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‚I sucked at the bowling ๐Ÿ˜Keith kicked my ass by like 47 points.He found it hilarious how bad I was at it.After winning he decided to switch the bet to the loser had to decide what we were going to do next so I decided to help me relax a bit around him again that we should go for a drink.He chose the Connaught Hotel as he could leave the car there overnight and collect it for work the next day.There was music on there too.I found a table while he bought the first round ๐Ÿท

It took us a while but we finally found ourselves relaxing in each others company.Apparently he caught the musician (not my crush musician)winking at me and he said”The musician just winked at you,I should tell him oh no my friend,no fun for you tonight”๐Ÿ˜‹For the first time in 6 months or more we talked properly.Keith was more open and honest with me than he had been in a long time ๐Ÿ˜We talked about our ex’s,our hopes for the future,his plans for the next year,my trip to Australia,I updated him on Dad’s progress and he was genuinely just wanting to talk and listen to me ๐Ÿ˜We laughed at funny videos on his phone,laughing about times we shared and we both spent the rest of the night drinking,laughing and smiling non-stop โคIt felt like I was getting the Keith that I had fallen in love with back.

We got a taxi into town and went into the Quay’s bar.I decided shots were a good idea(never a good idea if you read my past blogs ๐Ÿ˜‚).We found a table and he excused himself to go to the bathroom.While he was away a random guy came over to chat me up.He was not my type but I still like to let them try instead of flat out refusing.As I was talking to this guy I caught Keith standing staring at us on the stairs out of the cornor of my eye ๐Ÿ˜‚He kept waving at me to get my attention but I pretended I couldn’t see him ๐Ÿ˜‚He returned to the table and the random guy apologised.Just to see what Keith’s reaction would be I hugged the guy goodbye.After the guy left Keith looked at me and said “Are you kidding me?A hug goodbye? ๐Ÿ˜ก”I laughed and asked him if he was jealous?(he said no).Then I told him he can’t be jealous as he has been off having sex with god knows how many women ๐Ÿ˜Then he gave out to me saying he doesn’t want me to be with anyone else but him (double standards much?!)We finished our drinks and decided to go get food in Supermacs to bring home with us.

While waiting in the queue for our food we got chatting a guy in the queue also.Keith asked him what he worked as and he replied he work in a bridal shop.I got so excited and told this guy that I would spend the whole time trying on the dresses.I think I may have drunkenly went on to explain Keith’s and I situation to this guy ๐Ÿ˜‚I just remember saying “I love him and want to marry him but he wont cop the fuck on so I am going to Australia to get away from him”๐Ÿ˜‚The next part of the conversation I remember is the guy asking Keith what he would like to see me getting married in (he mean’t wedding dress)and Keith replied”I want to marry her in yoga pants ๐Ÿ˜”He is obsessed when I wear yoga pants.He can’t get enough of my ass in them or keep his hands to himself ๐Ÿ˜‰We got our food and a got into a taxi.Keith looked after me so well.He was feeding me the whole way home in the taxi ๐Ÿ˜˜

We got into his apartment and went to bed.We ended up arguing (we always do when drunk ๐Ÿ˜‚)I was telling him how much I love him,how much it hurts me when he is with other women,that I don’t think he is in love with me,that I want to marry him,I want to have children with him and I got so angry with him when he said that with all those other women it means nothing as its just sex.It left me wondering if thats all I really mean’t to him and when I asked him that very queation he looked like he was about to cry.He told me that I am the second most important person to him in his life and that I was just below his brother โคI asked him how am I mean’t to believe that when he treats me like I mean nothing to him.He got angry with me and pointed out that I was the one who told him in the beginning when we met that I didnt want anything serious(so am I not allowed to change my mind asshole?!๐Ÿ˜ก)Then he stunned me by what he said next.Apparently Keith doesn’t believe in love anymore ๐Ÿ’”(his ex must have fucked him up badly).I retaliated in anger by telling him he was going to end up alone and he snapped back thats what he wants so people will stop pressuring him.Then Keith asked me why I was seeing Craig (a guy I was seeing briefly during one of the times Keith&I’s situationship was “over for good”).I explained that although Craig was lovely I was only with him to hurt Keith so he would know how it feels when I have to see or hear him with another woman.So he countered with the arguement that that had the opposite effect I wanted and how can I say I love him if I done that.I just simply said “I could ask you the same question”.

I was so pissed off I got up to leave but he apologised and begged me to stay.We cuddled for bit while watching tv but then I got horny so decided we were having sex ๐Ÿ˜‰Keith was having none of it.He just wanted to cuddle while falling asleep.I kissed his neck and slid my hand down his boxers but to no avail.In the end though I was happy to give up and just lie in his arms โคWe slept in eachother’s arms all night ๐Ÿ˜™It was perfect.

In the morning as he always does when I stay over he woke me up by kissing my neck and then when I was conscious enough he slid his fingers into me ๐Ÿ˜‰The best wake up call ever๐Ÿ˜„.I don’t know why but with only him I get so wet very quickly ๐Ÿ˜‚It wasn’t long before I couldn’t wait no longer,I HAD to feel him inside me ๐Ÿ˜˜The sex was intense.I don’t how or why but I always crave him ๐Ÿ˜‰I can NEVER get enough.We disagree about alot but the sex is always good ๐Ÿ˜„I have never been so sexually satisfied with any man.He just gets how and where to touch me to drive me wild.I orgasmed and we went back to sleep.I was so content sleeping beside him holding hands ๐Ÿ’When I tried to move away as it got too warm he pulled me back in.Then after a few more hours I gotย  woke up by him moving my hand down his boxers.I tried to play hard to get a bit by resisting but he got on top of me and teased me by whispering about how much he wanted me.That was it…I was weak at the knees for him and again we had amazing sex ๐Ÿ˜‰Two orgasms in one morning left me exhausted so we had another snooze while cuddled up.Again he woke up very horny so this time I made sure he also got to cum ๐Ÿ˜œI then got dressed to go back up the stairs to my apartment.To my surprise he text me not long after saying he was wrecked(he doesnt usually text me for a few days after we hook up).

I forgot to mention that during our heart to heart at the beginning of the night,my deputy store manager,Katarina,posted a picture of her in the hospital visiting Danniella.I showed Keith the snap as I had been explaining the whole story to him.Then Keith dropped a bombshell.He met Katarina online dating ๐Ÿ˜ฏDuring an off period of our situationship they went on a date ๐Ÿ˜’He said she was obsessed with work and they only met for a drink.He assured me nothing happened between them.It made me feel uncomfortable,uneasy and very jealous ๐Ÿ˜ค The next day I couldn’t look at Katarina without feeling a bit angry even though I have no right to.It bothered me on so many levels though because now what he does is affecting my job for one and I can’t get the image of those two together out of my mind ๐Ÿ˜”Am I overreacting?I just can’t look Katarina in the eye now.We did try to discuss it the next day at work but I shut it down as I couldn’t bare it.

Anyway thats all the news and drama of the week so far.

Screenshot_20180329-024718

Positive vibes always,

Shauna ๐Ÿ˜—

Published by

The Pieces of Me

I'm a 28 year woman living in the greatest city in Ireland aka Galway.This blog is my personal diary of the struggles I face dating,the crazy drama I can never avoid,the complicated relationships with my family/friends and battles with mental health.I hope if anyone reads this they will find it helpful and funny because you won't believe the shit that happens to me but I promise its all true!Enjoy...๐Ÿ˜

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s