Hey gals and guys😁,
Yesterday was payday and it was badly needed.My phone charging cable broke and I bought a new phone cover which is shock proof for when I drop my phone whilst drunk 😂
I decided after such a long week at work that I would ask Ellen if she wanted to go for a pint after work.She agreed and suggested Caribou.I had heard of it from the musician as he drinks there and lives nearby it.My new thing is that I want to go to all the pubs I havent been to in Galway before I leave for Australia so to Caribou we went last night.First we stopped in Ellen’s for Ruth and I to borrow clothes off her instead of going out in our work uniforms.We headed for the bar and I immediately loved the vibe in there.I knew it wasnt going to be a one pint and leave night as planned as soon as we went to the smoking area to chat.
Since Lauren and Aoife left Lidl I have been feeling lonely.Ellen and I mostly work together now and she is hilarious 😄It was nice to go out and bond outside of work.Ruth went home after her first drink so it was just Ellen and I until her boyfriend Bruce finished work.As per every night out the ritual of the bathroom visits began where we chatted about the men in our lives.I was telling Ellen about Keith and how he went on a date with Katarina.She felt so sorry for me.When we left the bathrooms we found a table near the bar.I looked like shit without make-up and messy hair but I wasn’t expecting to meet anyone I knew.
As we sat at our table I look up at the bar and saw a familiar face.I had to actually do a double take because it shocked me to see Keith standing at the bar after we were just talking about him.I had no idea he drank in Caribou (I hope to god he has never crossed paths with the musician).Keith was staring back at me with a confused look on his face similiar to my own 😂It was awkward for a few seconds as we weren’t sure do we talk to each other or not.He opted for a wave hello and I just waved back.Keith was ordering pints at the bar and I said to Ellen that if he was with a woman there would be war.She advised the best way to find out was to go order a pint and chat him at the bar but I just waited to see what drinks he ordered (if it was in a wine glass etc then I’d know if he was meeting a woman)but he ordered 3 pints of cider.I followed him with my eyes to see where he went to sit.Turns out he was out with his younger brother (who has tried it on with me twice so far!) and a friend.
Ellen suggested we move to a bigger table as her boyfriend Bruce was on his way from work.We moved to the next table over and I said to Ellen I’d sit facing Keith so I could keep an eye on his goings on.Then we spotted a couch with a big table so we moved there and it was even closer to Keith’s table.He probably thought we moved to spy on him but actually we moved so we could drink and play ‘Cards Against Humanity’.Bruce arrived and we instantly got on like a house on fire.He is so funny.Ellen and I explained about Keith and of course typical man,when Bruce looked round to get a glimpse of Keith,he made it so obvious we were talking about him 😂
Keith and his crew left after one pint.He probably didnt want my watchful eye over him but he was watching Bruce and I like a hawk too 😂After a few more pints we decided to go get food.The guy serving us recognised us from Lidl and gave use free curry sauce (usually it costs €2…may not seem like much…thats €2 extra for drink another night 😋).Ellen and Bruce walked me to the taxi rank and I headed home.
About half an hour later Keith’s taxi pulled up.As is our usual routine,I waited for the drunken phonecalls and messages from him but nothing so I vibered him just saying goodnight.Sure enough he rang and said “Get your ass down here so we can go to sleep”.I went downstairs and when I lay down to go to sleep beside him he was in a mood.First he told me I better not be being stupid with other men (he mean’t having unprotected sex) so this made me lose my temper.I started giving out about all the women he was sleeping with and that I was going to go checked for an STI(which I am anyway).Then he asked who Bruce was(he never mentioned that there was also a female with me so he was clearly keeping watch of just Bruce and I)so I told him.There was alot of back and forth getting upset with each other but then Keith said “I just don’t want you to get hurt or see anything bad happen to you.Take the sex out of it.I respect you (no he doesn’t)and we get on well together”.I replied saying I know he doesn’t respect me,he doesn’t love me or even care about me.He asked how does his actions say that and I replied about the having sex with other women.Then for the first time ever he said those 3 words I ALWAYS wanted to hear and words he had always refused to say until last night.Keith looked at me and said “Of course I love you Shauna.I don’t want you to go to Australia.I am going to miss you so much”.The tears welled up in my eyes and then he ruined the moment by following it up with “I can’t commit right now”.
I argued with him that he can’t expect me to continue sitting around and waiting for him.I was a complete bitch and said “I’ll just fuck off to Australia in 8 weeks and you can fuck all the women you want”.He got so angry so I apologised and turned my back to him to go to sleep.I couldn’t stay angry with him when he cuddled up to me and kissed me on the neck.I turned around and we both fell asleep in each others arms right away.I love sleeping in his arms or even just cuddled up holding hands😍.Keith used to cuddle me for a bit and then turn the other way to sleep but lately he has to be touching me in some way while sleeping.I am not complaining one bit as its incredibly adorable and makes me love him more 😍I had to be up at 8am to get ready for work so I quietly snuck out of Keith’s apartment.A few hours later I got a message asking where I went so I explained to him that I had to leave to get ready for work at 10am.I would have given anything to stay cuddled up in bed with him all day though 😍We only have 9 weeks left together before I go and we are both busy with work so the precious moments we do have I want to stop the jealousy and the arguing and just enjoy each other’s company.
Anyway I am absolutely wrecked from a lack of sleep (Keith was snoring very loudly😂)Early night for me tonight 😄
Positive vibes always,