Playing with my Heart Strings

Hey gals and guys ๐Ÿ˜

Man oh man am I exhausted๐Ÿ˜ช.Its been another week of doing 50+hours ๐Ÿ˜ซI can’t wait for next week.I have 3 days off ๐Ÿ˜We had two new girls start in our store this week.I know one of them from back home in Donegal.Years ago(9 years ago to be exact) despite not actually knowing me she threatened to beat the shit out of me because I kissed a guy who I was on a date with but her friend was obsessed with him ๐Ÿ˜•So I wasnt looking forward to her becoming a colleague to say the least.We’ll see how it goes.I know my Lidl 936 family have my back and if she says one bad word about me she will be put in her place ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m not 100% sure yet but I think Keith has removed all his online dating profiles ๐Ÿ˜ŠI don’t know if that means anything for us.As good as it has been going because of how much of a car crash it turned into before I told him I don’t think I’ll ever fully trust him.It makes me sad but my gut instinct is telling me that I shouldn’t trust this sudden and miraculously change in his behaviour.Maybe he truly has realised what he is losing when I leave and just wants to make our last weeks together the best he can but I just don’t believe it ๐Ÿ˜•I didn’t listen to my gut instinct the last time so this time I will and keep my guard up with Keith.

To complicate matters the musician snapchatted me out of the blue๐Ÿ˜ฎ.He had just finished a gig and was relaxing at home.I snapped him back asking him if he wanted to go for a drink when I finished work but he said he couldn’t face it after being out last night ๐Ÿบ๐ŸคขI snapped him back saying it was bed and cuddles with my hot water bottle so and he replied saying “I wish I was cuddling you instead ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜”.After weeks of no communication he wanted to get flirty?! ๐Ÿค”I made a cheeky joke about how one side of the bed was cold since I last saw him and he snapped back “Fair point ๐Ÿ˜‚”.

I finished work and went to Supermac’s to get food to eat at home.When I got in I snapped a picture of my pizza on my bed saying “Perfection ๐Ÿ˜”to the musician.He quickly snapped back saying “There is my side on the right ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜”.I played dumb to his flirtation and snapped back “Your side of the pizza or the bed?๐Ÿ˜‹”The musician immediately replied “The bed obviously ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜”.Again I made a dig at his lack of messages since our night together by snapping back “To claim a side of the bed you have to be in it ๐Ÿ˜œ”Well I should have known better than to send that type of snap because the flirting escalated quickly ๐Ÿ˜‰I had forgotten how cute and adorable he was until he started sending me snaps of himself instead of his surroundings ๐Ÿ˜We talked about exactly what we wanted to do to each other when we meet up again ๐Ÿ˜‰I mean he wants to fuck me senseless (his words not mine).As much as I would have been estatic about this a few weeks ago it would feel like I am cheating on Keith despite us not being in a relationship.Am I being crazy?Am I not entitled to have some sexy time with the musician considering the parade of women I had to hear and see Keith with?Then on the flip side is it worth risking any future chance of a proper relationship with Keith for some fun with the musician?

I had finally accepted that the musician only wanted a one night stand and was happy going back to just being friends ๐Ÿ˜ŠNow here am I with the two men I have wanted most at different times of my life over the last year both want me now ๐Ÿ˜†All I know for certain is that the musician wants just another one night stand ๐Ÿ˜As for Keith’s intentions I still have no clue and even if I did,I don’t think I could believe them unless they are what I expect(bad).

For copyright purposes this picture is not mine.It was taken from social media ๐Ÿ˜‹Blog followers meet the musician (sort of)๐Ÿ˜‚


Positive vibes always,

Shauna ๐Ÿ˜—

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The Pieces of Me

I'm a 28 year woman living in the greatest city in Ireland aka Galway.This blog is my personal diary of the struggles I face dating,the crazy drama I can never avoid,the complicated relationships with my family/friends and battles with mental health.I hope if anyone reads this they will find it helpful and funny because you won't believe the shit that happens to me but I promise its all true!Enjoy...๐Ÿ˜

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